I think I pissed off two people who are very close to me. One of my best friends and my boyfriend. I took my second AP test this morning and I think I did quite horrible. At least for one of the sections, I believed I did it really bad…

What is present tonight is detachment from building up my own life. I tend to be very unfocused. I don’t really know what I’m doing most of the time and I allow myself to get distracted by every stimuli you can name out there. Tonight, I stalled from doing any…

I know it’ll get better — it always does. Emotions are like waves: they ebb and flow so even if it’s a “pleasant” or “unpleasant” emotion, it’ll always come and then go. It’s sad that it’s always the same things that get to me. Mainly, college. I ended the cycle…

I’m sitting in my government class and I just finished my quiz. I’m most definitely at my limit. This week I had 3 tests, and I failed all of them. On instinct I think: I don’t care anymore. What’s the point? I had my chemistry final, literature quiz, and government…

Emotionally breaking down and breaking down my emotions. I’m breaking down right now. Over my studies and over prom. I would very much like to cry to some of my friends or family but none of them have space or time for stuff like that in their lives right now…

I realized that after years worth of journals that perhaps my journaling wasn’t all that productive. I would have an invasive thought and scribble it down, consuming all the blue lines with intensity. A statement of temporary relief, a statement of validation, a statement that will be heard. But I…